that long walk

Seriously... life is just a long walk.

And I'm just kinda dragging my feet wishing it would end.

I mean like I have this mixed feeling of death.

All in all, I don't want to waste my life but I don't really see the point to make an effort... so I wonder if the best option is rather then dragging my feet just off it.

I don't believe in myself, and all i get is lip service from everyone.

yeah thanks, i appreciate it.

i really do.

but it doesn't give me the motive to keep going further.

to me... i've already failed. this is it. 2-3 yrs down the road, i'm probably doing the same shit.

cuz that's just how life works. you can't just change careers, i don't want to go to school cuz i suck at it...

yep.

failed.

and yet here i am still bitching.

probably to thin air.

it's been awhile

I only have a few moments before I have to go to work. It's Sunday... and I slept the day away. Dreaming weird dreams, seeing people, friends, and anyone really I haven't seen in ages.

It was like a mini get together...

Just kinda reminds me how alone I am at times. How much I've done the drifting...

But it can't be helped.


Still... I march on. Still I fight. And still I have no idea why... hahahaha

There are some things in this life and the next worth fighting for.

And I hope you know it too, even though you may never read this blog.

I've taken a lot of roads, that have distracted me, even though deep down I know. But I have to grow, I have to change, I can't afford to make many mistakes as I did in the past...